[jadepebbleMember]

Hi Cheese

One suggestion. Notice that you are telling yourself a story about what enlightenment will be like. Before it was “it will be really nice”. Now it is “it will be awful”.

My problematic story was worrying if I would be able to function. There were a couple of moments along the path when I was very immersed in the present and wasn’t thinking about my to do list and then abruptly remembered to do something ‘just in time’. I got scared and worried and spun stories about of how a more exaggerated version of that would be awful.

One of the keys for me was to start noticing that I was telling myself a story and then realizing that it was just a story. I didn’t know that it would be awful. My mind was just taking things that had been fine, if sometimes a bit new or odd, and creating “what if” horror stories that weren’t really based in anything that had happened. Seeing that over and over eventually led to being able relax, let that story go.

I’d second the recommendation for Adyashanti and also Mukti, I found both very helpful.

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